Heb 10:16-17
This is the covenant that I will make with them after those days, saith the Lord, I will put my laws into their hearts, and in their minds will I write them;
And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more.
The joy one has when they get saved is the joy of knowing they have been forgiven. The weight of sin being lifted off our shoulders, our minds. "God you can forgive me, me" was my cry, and HE did. Oh what love. What grace, that he would give to us what we do not deserve. But the danger is that we don't fully receive that forgiveness and we think that were either unworthy or we want to feel some kind of consequence, so we beat ourselves up mentally thinking that will justify us and make it all better, but that's a lie from hell. Can you add on to what Jesus did for you on the cross. My bible says that Jesus said "ITS FINISHED" meaning its done, that's it. HE TOOK THE FULL PENALTY FOR OUR SIN. When we constantly think and re-live our past failures it begins to direct the future that God has for us. Listen the All Powerful the ALL KNOWING GOD we serve who knows all things says that HE will remember our sins our past no more and that's what he means . HE will willing forget, the devil will try to remind us "See look at you who do you think that you are". But that's the devil the father of lies. Believe God at His word it will help you. God has a powerful plan that He has made just for you, SO DROP THE DEAD WEIGHT OF YOUR PAST LIFE AND GO FORWARD TO ALL THE THINGS GOD HAS PLANNED FOR YOU.